Lesson from Honduras #3: We have nothing to give

Throughout the mission in Honduras we had many “moments of grace.”  These are those Imagebrief moments of revelation, when the Holy Spirit makes one truth beautifully clear.  Sometimes that truth is about God’s heart and sometimes they are about our own—but all the times they are unexpected gifts from God.   The timing of these moments are divine.  They have come to me while I am parenting my children, praying in my office, driving my car, or even standing in the shower.  This one came when I we were giving a single-mom a house.

On Friday, friends, family, and neighbors all gathered to dedicate the house to Jessica.  We all had the opportunity to share any thoughts or reflections we had.  Only a few of us shared before her pastor prayed.  As the pastor of this team, I obviously felt compelled to speak not only for myself, but for our team, our church, and everyone who had contributed time, energy, and money to give this young woman a home

I told her that, less than year ago we didn’t know she existed and she had probably never heard of Damascus Road Church in Marysville, Washington.  But now she does know us.  And what she knew is that a group of people in another part of the world loved her unconditionally.  More than that, having done nothing to earn our favor, those same people had come to give her something she probably could never have obtained alone.  And as I spoke, what I said came to be shaped by one of these “moments of grace.”  I told her that, though we had travelled a long way and worked hard to build her a house, WE hadn’t really given her anything.  Everything we had, our time, our money, our abilities, our energy, even our very desires were a gift from Jesus.  I told her that, truthfully, we had absolutely nothing to give in ourselves.  We came to her because Jesus came to us.  We loved her because Jesus loved us.  We gave to her because Jesus gave himself for us.  

As it is with all moments of grace, standing in the middle of a slum in Honduras, everything became clear.  Though we may have looked like a group of Americans who had everything to give, I was reminded that it we were actually a broken group of sinners who have nothing in ourselves.  All we have is from God.  Everything we have, and everything we don’t have, is a gift from Him, by Him, for Him. 

Where is the Spirit leading you?

I was reading in Matthew 4 today and couldn’t get passed the first verse:  ”Then Jesus wasImage led into the wilderness to be tempted (tested) by the devil”

Jesus’ 40 day journey into the wilderness is a replay of Israel’s 40 year wandering in the wilderness.  Hungry, weak, and vulnerable, the devil himself comes and tempts Jesus to deny God the Father, to lose faith, to sin.  Using the Word of God, Jesus success where Adam, Israel, and every man who has ever lived fails.  That is why Jesus is our sinless Savior and perfect substitute in death and life.

What I was struck with most, however, was the fact that the SPIRIT LED Him into the wilderness.  And as I recalled the the story of Israel’s from Exodus through Joshua.  Specifically, I considered how the Spirt led them at different times.  A times, the Spirit led them into a time of freedom from slavery; at other times, the Spirit led them into a time of testing; sometimes the Spirt led them into a time of victorious battle, and still other times, the Spirit led them into a time of peace, rebuilding, and rest. 

The question is never IF the Spirit leading, but always WHERE He is leading. In response to Frodo’s statement about his own trial, ”I wish none of this had happened.” the wise fictional Wizard Gandalf said ”So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.”

What kind of time is He leading you into right now?  Freedom from slavery?  Temptation and testing?  Battle and Victory?  Or Peace and Rest?  

If you are not sure…why don’t you ask Him?

#2 Lesson from Honduras: The mission BEFORE the mission

First, I am not a “missions” expert.  These are simply my rambling reflections about our recent mission trip to Roatan, Honduras.Image

As our trip for Honduras approached, I became more and more anxious.  Part of my anxiety came from the “unknown”.  The other half came from what I knew, rather, what I had learned from our Dwellings contact about our build.  In the weeks prior to our departure, he posted pictures first with posts in the ground, then with floor joices set, then with a floor on! Though you would think such progress would encourage my excitement, it only served to discourage it because we weren’t the ones doing it. I feared the 10 strong men on our team would not have enough to do, that we would be unchallenged or bored, that we wouldn’t struggle or work hard, that we might not suffer enough, or that we would otherwise waste the time, money, or energy we had built up over the last 6 months. I feared that our “mission” would be done the day we started.

It goes without saying, but I’ll say it, we later learned that our mission was not primarily to go there to build a house. That was what we were doing, but not what God would do in us. Alas, that is a lesson for another day.   But on the Monday we arrived, the first thing we did was go to the build site.  My fears only increased as it ‘appeared’ as if the building was nearly half complete (It wasn’t)!.  We surveyed the site, planned the next day, ate dinner, then spent some time discussing our “expectations” as a team. This was the first of several good conversations. I honestly shared some of the fears I had felt, specifically concerning what I “expected” would be lackluster project devoid of enough: blood, sweat, and tears to make it worthwhile. It was then that one man on our team reminded me of the mission before the mission.  

Sitting in Honduras, what was clear is that a house would be built of a single mom, her sister, and five children. That was the original vision for the mission and that was what we were about to do.  Whether the build took us only 6 hours or a full 6 days, our mission would be completed.  But the mission didn’t start on the Monday we arrived.  And those who brought it to completion were not only those who would swing a hammer.  The mission began nearly a year prior and included hundreds of friends, family, and even a  few strangers.  There is a mission before the mission–the work that God does through His people, for His glory, before a single board is ever nailed.

There was the proclamation before the mission:  The mission began with a small idea, but the vision was supported by a big idea–the gospel of Jesus Christ.  We were on mission to make the kingdom of God tangible.  We were on mission to go, love, and sacrifice someone who didn’t “deserve” it because Jesus came, loved, and sacrificed for us when we didn’t deserve it. . That mission began centuries ago and in 2013, a small group of men went again to remind people that Jesus is still saving.

There were the conversations about the mission: For whatever reason, people have an easier time of starting conversations about homes in Honduras than they do about their faith, their church, or their Lord. In the months prior to the build, hundreds of emails and face to face conversations took place.  We were excited to tell everyone (believer or not) what we were doing: friends, family, doctors, co-workers, baristas, even strangers. And, to our surprise, they all wanted to listen.  They wanted to know what we were doing, when, and why.  Many seeds were planted in the months prior to our leaving.

There were the events to support the mission: There were several fundraising events designed to help us raise money for the mission.  And though only 10 guys actually went on the trip, a ton more helped to organize these events.  The mission, before the mission, provided an opportunity for people to be a part of God’s work even if they couldn’t go.  They used their time, their energy, their resources, their homes, their creativity, everything they had to see this mission completed.  The mission gave focus to the “new” in faith and energized the “old” in faith, bringing everyone together with ONE mind, as ONE body, to complete ONE task, for our ONE God.

There was the giving toward the mission: Though we had nearly 9 months to raise the money (12k), at the beginning of January we had only raised 25% of what we needed for the build.  By the end of January, we were funded 110%. God is amazing. . But God works through people who gave sacrificially to support this mission.  Some gave as little as $10 and some gave as much as $1,500.  Our givers included little kids with allowances, teenagers with minimum wage jobs, young men with families and bills, older men with careers, unbelieving family members, friends who have never stepped food in our church, family doctors who heard about the mission from their patients, fireman who heard about it from co-workers, generous people at garage sales, even a big supportive group of longshoremen who simply love a good game of poker.  We are grateful for who God moved to give.   But I’ve realized that money is no object in God’s economy--it’s simply a tool He gives to use to point others to the Son He gave.  

The mission before the mission is something that often gets lost after the completion of the mission. Many will argue that short-term missions are a waste of time, money, and resources. I do believe we need to be wise in how we go on mission, but I have seen first hand the number of souls that even one simple mission can impact.

We need to be on mission here, there, and everywhere.  For a few it will mean a sacrifice of actually going “on mission”. But for most, that will mean staying at home “on mission”.  But what does that mean? For many it will mean sharing the vision with others.  For others, it will mean giving of their time or money. For some, it will mean employing their gifts.   And for everyone, it opens their eyes to something bigger than their own little kingdom.  This is the invaluable mission work that occurs before any “work” is done on the mission field.

#1 Lesson from Honduras: Out of my context

As both of you know (figure that is how many read this thing), I returned from a mission in ImageRoatan, Honduras last Sunday.  A team of 10 men spent a week building a home for a single mom, engaging with the Honduran culture, and learning about the dwellings ministry we partnered with.  The experience included everything imaginable and a few things unimaginable.  I don’t yet fully appreciate everything that happened there, perhaps I never will.  

Since Sunday, and even a few days prior, I have spent a lot of time journaling, praying, and talking about the experience.  It is not that I am searching for that one amazing divine-revelation that will validate the time and expense of the trip. On the contrary, like a grand buffet, I just don’t want to miss any one moral God wants me to chew on from this trip.  With a good pipe in hand, I intend on enjoying hours of contemplation for there is much to learn.  Moreover, I hope that writing a series of blogs will also help me to process some of the lessons God has for me.  Since this is the first mission trip I have been on as a pastor, these blogs will also serve as a tool to share my experience with the church I lead and love.  

To begin, the first lesson I learned from this trip has to do with the motivation for going in the first place.  Everyone has different reasons for signing up for such adventures.  Some probably feel compelled by God, their pastor, or their wives; others are invited by friends; and even a few are simply bored with their lives.  Personally, the inspiration from the trip came from a God-given desire to get out of my regular routine and context.  Though I may not have said this even a few months ago, I now believe that getting out of your context is more than just change for change sake.  It is a God-given desire, which leads to a God-empowered action, for the purpose of restoring a God-centered orientation.

Though I haven’t fully processed every detail of the trip, I remained convinced that EVERYONE NEEDS TO GET OUT OF THEIR CONTEXT AT LEAST ONCE A YEAR. Of course, there are few guarantees about what will happen when you do this—that is why most people don’t.  The only things they can imagine are certain to happen is that they will have to take some risk (which is scary), spend money (which is limited), get time off work (which is difficult) , and otherwise be inconvenienced (which is unappealing).  Such “certainties” make convincing excuses. It is amazing how much faith we put in them. In truth, nothing is certain about such adventures before, during, or after.  But I have seen how God faithfully makes all things work together for those faithful few willing to trust him despite  such “certainties”.   

Without doubt, most of us would agree about one certainty. Most of most our lives largely consist of repetition and routine.  Personally, the life-rhythms for me and my family are fairly predictable on a daily, weekly, even monthly basis.  On a real practical level, I know what I am going to do tomorrow, when I will wake up, when I will go to bed, what I will wear, what I will eat, who I will meet with, what emails I will send, what time “nature will call”, what I will read, what I need to pray for, what I need to study for the sermon, pretty much everything that makes up what I do every day .   If that is not depressing enough, I know what roads I will drive on, where I will stop, where I will park, where I will get my coffee, even where I will get gas—and I know who will be there when I do all those things.  For better or worse, this is my context.

If we are not careful, I believe the familiarity of our context can numb us to a number of very important things as Christians, namely:  1) the joy of life with God 2) the joy of mission for God 3) and the joy that comes with the unpredictable mystery of following God into something unknown.  In other words, we forget why we who we are in Christ and why exactly we are still here.

Not everyone has to go to Honduras to get out of their context, there are a thousand ways to do it, near and far.  Here are my some of my personal guidelines about how to get out of your context, generated from my own reflections:

  1. Go and disconnect:  In our world of technology, it is easy to “go” and actually still be here.  In order to hear God, I believe you have to stop listening to the cyber world.
  2. Go and serve:  The key to getting out of your context is to focus your time on others.  This is not a vacation from your life-rhythms, but a decision to adopt the rhythm of someone else.
  3. Go on your dime: Quite simply, getting out of your context should cost you something. 
  4. Go with others:  Go with a team a people made up of some friends and some acquaintances.  Too many, or too close of friends, can easily draw you back into what is familiar by default.  You end up being in a different place but the same context, learning nothing.
  5. Go without your family:  Some will disagree with this.  I am convinced that family can sometimes be a distraction.  Your attention is divided (and rightly so).  There is much to be said about doing this with family, but I believe they will be more blessed if you do it alone.
  6. Go for at least a week:  While it takes less than a day to disconnect physically, t usually takes me two or three days to disconnect emotionally. 
  7. Go with God:  Getting out of your context is not “taking a break from God.”  Stepping away from the normal busyness of life should enable you to spend more time with God. 

Words of Men: Dangerous Calling

In my pursuit of more joy this year, I have begun reading Dangerous Calling, by Paul David Tripp. ImageFrom its very first pages, the book cuts like a knife–in a good way.  By God’s grace, as I read this I am reflecting on where I was, not where I am.  So while this a book every pastor should be required reading for every to read, I doubt a pastor can really appreciate what is written until they are about 5-6 years into full-time-ministry–just enough time to come face to face with the reality of their weakness.  Perhaps I am speaking only for myself, but I believe that it takes some time for the pride-filled idealism to wear off (at least a little).  In other words, it takes several years for the pastor to start listening to his own preaching and come face to face with his idolatry.  This is also just about the time the pastor has a breakdown, his marriage implodes, his family falls into chaos, and/or he decides to get out of ministry all together and drive a bread truck. Sadly, sometimes those all happen at the same time.  

Though Tripp’s book is written by a pastor who often ministers to pastors, it is better described as a book written by a fellow sinner to sinners.  Below is a quote offering a series of questions about where one finds their identity, meaning, hope, etc.  These are questions that everyone, pastor or not, should ask themselves:

“The absence of what causes us to want to give up and quite?  The pursuit of what leads us to feeling overburdened or overwhelmed? The fear of what makes us tentative and timid rather than courageous and hopeful? The craving for what makes us burn the candle at both ends until we have little left? The “need” for what robs ministry of its beauty and joy?  The desire for what sets up tensions between ministry and family?” (pg. 102)

39 Years Down…

I turn 39 today.  As I was driving I heard “Forever Young” on the radio, an old 80’s tune. It Imagemade me think about the fact that most young people spend their years wishing they were older and most old people spend their years wishing they were younger.  Overall, no one is really satisfied with where they are at.  I want to be content at 39.  At the same time, I don’t want to be complacent.  I want to enjoy 39, but not remain as I am now.  I want to grow more, mature more, and learn more.  I want to become more compassionate, more loving, more peaceful, more patient, kinder, wiser, and healthier (in every sense of the word).  The goal is not perfection, for that is not possible in this life.  The goal is simply to look more like Jesus for whatever number of years or days God has given me. I don’t wish this for the admiration or respect others, but because I deeply believe this kind of growth where the most honor to God and the most joy for myself will be found.

At 39, I imagine many people go into a depression because, statistically, I am probably closer to death than I have ever been.  But let’s be honest, this is an unavoidable consequence for us all—we’re dying the day we’re born.   For those who are in Christ, such thinking should not lead us to depression for we know that this life is not all there is—we are no longer natural, but spiritual.  Even though our bodies start to breakdown and our minds function a little bit slower, we do not lost heart. Life should become richer with each new year; and if we don’t experience that in this life, we’ll definitely experience in the next.  As Paul writes, “Though our outer nature is wasting away, our inner nature is being renewed day by day.  For this slight momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all compassion” (2Cor. 4.16-17). 

Life is just a speed bump to eternity with our Creator.  And when we’re sitting with Jesus for over 70 million years, we will look back and see everything in its right perspective.  Namely, the greatest sufferings in our earthly lives will seem like stubbing our toes, and our greatest achievements will seem like winning the 1st grade checkers championships.  Here’s to rejoicing in what God has already done for me for the next 39 years, 39 days, or 39 minutes…or whatever time I have left until I see Him in all his glory.

Is there any life apart from Christ?

In Philippians 1.18b-26, It is clear that Paul has the expectation that his experience will Imageresult in his deliverance.  But, his definition of deliverance is freedom from prison OR freedom from his life.  Either way, his greatest hope is that he will not be ashamed in life or death.  In fact, Paul sounds torn between what he feels is better.  Not that he really has a choice in the matter, but he has a great desire to stay and work for Christ but an equal (or even greater) desire to be with Jesus.  For Paul, to LIVE IS CHRIST TO DIE IS GAIN. 

I wonder what it really means to “live as Christ?”  To live “as” Christ seems to mean more than just asking “What would Jesus do?” all of time.  Perhaps we aren’t to ask questions at all but, rather, preach to ourselves constantly through our daily life what Jesus HAS ALREADY DONE.  There are many different aspects of our daily lives…can we see that we are devoted to Christ in them? That the gospel is governing our approach to and appreciation for them?  This is not committed to doing life in a culturally “Christian way”, as much as doing it for, by, and through Jesus Christ.  Doing this should encompass all of life–make it all spiritual (not just Sunday mornings)–and result in more statements like:  To work is Christ.  To play is Christ.  To parent is Christ.  To grow is Christ. To spend is Christ.  To eat is Christ.  To drink is Christ. To relate is Christ.  To learn is Christ.  To rejoice is Christ.  To dream is Christ. To serve is Christ. To give is Christ.  To love is Christ.   Is there any life apart from Christ?  No, not if Jesus is actually right when he says, “I am the way, the truth, and the life.” Apart from Christ, there is no motivation in life to live.  Apart from Christ, there is no power to live.  Apart from Christ, there is no example to live by. Come quickly Lord Jesus so that I can truly experience the glorified life! 

Colossians 4.1-4  If then you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. When Christ who is your life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.